"Being sick"(sucks) this is my sickness i sit here and die i can't concentrate i can only lye here in wait for what? for something better, for relief, for happiness to be able to breathe. as i sit here and wait, while slowly dying, i begin to feel as though i am flying, maybe i overdosed, maybe i'm turning into a ghost... who knows all i know is that i hate this sickness, this illness that keeps me tied to the bed, i hate it and i can't wait to kill it |
“Petals of love”
9/17/06
He loves me,
He loves me not?
Two pieces of my heart fall into the wind and onto the ground.
Loose, exposed and unwound.
He loves me,
He loves me not?
Flying boldly,
And full of hope.
He loves me,
He loves me not?
They run to the other pieces that seem to have fallen,
Off of the cliff and into the wind to be blown like leaves and dust.
He loves me,
He loves me not?
Gently,
Roughly,
Falling around one person…
Him, my one true love.
He loves me,
He loves me not?
It’s all a matter of choice,
It’s his decision to fly up and catch me,
Only stop me,
And also his decision to simply let me fall and grow my own wings,
So I can catch myself.
He loves me,
He loves me not?
It’s his decision to catch,
My petals of love…
Or not… |
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“Pain”
The rain fell…
Searing pain…
And she wept…
Blood coursed down her arms…
Still the rain fell…
Tears dropped from her eyes…
She looked up at him…
And asked…
“Why?”
Why all the pain,
Heartbreak,
And broken dreams?
She shivers now,
As she draws her last breathe…
And dies in everlasting
PAIN. |
“Don’t Leave Me Bare”
Do you promise?
Will you protect me?
Will you save me?
Will you keep me hidden?
Do you promise:
To keep me alive.
To let me thrive.
As you leave me here,
Do you promise,
To return?
Will you forget me?
Will you let me die?
Will you promise me forever?
Do you promise?
Promise me that you’ll promise me.
Promise me that you’ll care.
Promise me your love.
Please don’t leave me bare. |
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“Roses and Thorns In and of My Heart”
Roses and thorns
Bleeding hearts
Souls reborn
Red ruby lips
Drip
With blood
Of the innocent
Murder without consent
My life takes a turn
Only for the worse
Judgment day approaches
We realize now
That even the mighty tend to fall
To the ground
Tears
They roll down my cheeks
Like gentle waterfalls
Flowing down
The Rocks
I become submerged
In my turmoil
My pain
My joy gets
Washed away
I don’t know what to do
I am so lost
Someone please
Help me
Tell me
What should
I do?
I’ve lost everything
Please take away
This terrible pain
My heart bleeds from my eyes
The skies begin to rain
Blending with my tears of pain
My heart stops beating
As the thorns from my rose of love
Tears It Away
Roses and Thorns In and of my heart kill me slowly
I lay here
Bleeding and Torn
Lifeless, mindless
Alone forever |
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